Wrote in Draper, Utah Prison May 25, 2018 by Jacob Edmond Kerr

“Beware of eradicating evil, for you may become the evil yourself”. I have been thinking about this quote/statement a lot lately and how true it may be. Recently I was complaining about how some people are always complaining. Fortunately, I was conscious/aware enough to notice that I had become the very same thing I was complaining about at that moment. I have known some people in the past that were so anti-sexist that they had become sexist. I have known some that were anti-racist to the extent of being racist. I catch myself judging others frequently for judging others. When contemplating this state of mind in a certain light or perception it seems insane. It seems to me like most of us suffer from this form of insanity. For me and I believe many others this form of insanity comes naturally and it takes constant awareness to stop it in its tracks. To me, so many things seem backward. It seems as though people go from insanity to sanity, not the other way around.

It’s all Backwards

When I think of how backward things are naturally I think of a quote from Corinthians 13:12 “For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known”. I believe this quote maybe stating that for now with the Ego in its natural state, before awareness we see only a reflection as in a mirror. Without awareness, everything is backward as it is in a reflection. When awareness comes you will then know it and see it as the reflection that it is and get to know your true inner-self without the reflection face-to-face. Before awareness and even at the beginning of the awareness you know in part, only the one side of the Ego. Once awareness comes fully and you can see your Ego and true inner-self face-to-face then you shall know fully as you then know your true inner-self fully.

Getting to Know the Inner-Self

How does one get to know their true inner-self? When thinking about this sometimes I think of Mathew 16:24 “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me.” 16:25 “For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will find it.”